Getting scared

I thought it was the fact that I have been trying to get over a chest cold that kept me from logging in any miles, but I think it's something more. I'm getting scared. Scared to the point where I'm hitting a wall that has me questioning my decision to keep running and actually finishing the race coming up. I won't lie---this is where my anxiety starts really climbing. I'm doubting my every move---can I really run this race? What if I get a cramp? What if I hurt myself? What if something worse happens? I know I will be surrounded by so many in the same boat and all I have to do is just give what I can. 


I ran 3 miles because I had some time and the weather was perfect. Even though I had a great music set coming thru my earphones, I still couldn't shake all the questions. What on Earth did I get myself into?! This is when solo runs aren't very fun. I can distract myself somewhat with music, but my mind will still keep coming up with crazy and worrisome thoughts. 


Ack--I just need to get this out in hopes that it will calm me down. I know that as it gets closer and I log on more miles I might feel better. But if I don't feel better, I just need to believe that I gave it my all. I surrounded myself with 2 amazing running partners who were there for me until the end. I can do this...right?! Right?!